I never thought I could be so happy, until I held my baby boy in my arms.
I experience that same boundless love just thinking about him. And more importantly, the experience of that love has made me realize that I have really been missing out in the love department. Now that I have felt it, I know that I can have that same love, that same determination for good in many areas. I never thought that I could learn to love myself, but I finally have. I want to keep working on being healthy and happy, on forgiving others and myself, on being truly kind but also assertive.
This past year has been a tough one: difficult birth and recovery, stalled projects, stalled weightloss, deaths, divorce and growing pains in various relationships.
And yet there has been great joy and discovery, and above all great faith. Faith in God, faith in myself, other's faith in me and in their own lives.
But here I am now, feeling blessed and lifted up. Feeling more loved and loving now than ever before, feeling divine empowerment even in the midst of a troubled world and an uncertain future.
My God, my God, you have not forsaken us!
Blessings to all in the new year!
Happy New Year, Y'all!
I am indeed glad that this New Year has begun, but I am also a little fearful. This is the year of my dissertation, after all. It is a huge project. Clearly I need a plan to break it down (Break it down?! This is hand-carved mahogany! -Emperor's New Groove, Kronk). Tomorrow I will do the following for the dissertation:
1. Read the Kleinklausz (sp) book so that it can go back to the library on Monday;
2. Start getting a handle on where I am at with my bibliography and books I have out and files of articles and reading notes, etc.
If DS naptime works out I might also go in the morning to a playgroup, mostly because I could really stand to get out of the house!
Also, I will continue my New Year's Cleaning project around the house.
I am praying for DH while he is in Haiti (10 more days until he arrives home).
